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Not a Burden…

28 Sunday Aug 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in feelings, Life, Stories, Uncategorized

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acceptance, anxiety, better, life, memories, mind, poetry, random, stories, thoughts

My tears make a path that no one dries
A path filled with let downs that never end.

A silent scene of flashbacks and memories that started the cries
All alone.. not even trying to burden a friend.

Butterflies fill my stomach and also my head
Overthinking at its worst, worst than its ever been.

Sleeping used to be comforting, but now it’s something I dread
Trying to hide the pain with just a small grin.

Emotional all the time, but showing no emotion at all
Ducking behind the walls I built with my own hands.

Thinking to myself, “these walls are so tall”
And my personality is just so “bland.”

::Sighs:: with the thought that no one cares
Feelings become irrelevant.

Thinking that life is just so unfair
And only believing the words that “they” never meant.

I’m better now or so I thought
Fighting it, for years and years.

The horror that my mind has brought
Gets me emotional and filled with fears.

Never going back, doubt clouds my face–
::thinking:: THIS will be my “last straw.”

Everything will eventually fall into place
Starting with Me– everything I am and all my flaws.

A Red Word

13 Saturday Aug 2016

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THIS feeling.
An overwhelming out-pour of need.
Or maybe– want.
Loneliness is a disease.
It consumes.
But you can never truly be alone… if you love yourself.
Is it really that hard?
Yes!
How can you WANT someone to love you, if you, yourself, don’t love you.
Stricken with the idea that someone can love you–
The idea that you can possibly love yourself?
No!?
Those voices in your head.


“You’re not worth it.”


But if YOU believe this, so will everyone else.
Worthless.
A word with MORE meaning than it ever intended.

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