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Whispers in the Night

24 Tuesday May 2016

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life, mind, night, poetry, random, Sleep, thoughts

Fighting back tears,
to once again hear your voice.

It all happened so fast,
I never had a choice.

Between restless nights
and tired days.

My mind wanders in and out,
Thoughts fade.

I try not think about you,
because it hurts too much.

Coming home everyday,
no hugs, no touch.

This doesn’t really happen,
this can be real life.

The headaches are severe,
the pain cuts like a knife.

I crave sleep,
to forget once again.

Forget about the darkness,
and how it’s really been.

I lay on my pillow,
my chest tight.

Hours later,

Only to be awaken by,

Whispers in the Night.

A Defining Moment

19 Tuesday Apr 2016

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life, love, mind, poem, poetry, random, relationships, stories, thoughts

You’re just a fantasy
of what I think I need.

Your presence makes me sick
but, I constantly need to feed.

Addicted to your behavior
but, I’m upset all time.

I keep coming back for more,
making sure that you’re all mine.

I swear this is normal,
I keep telling myself this.

This can’t be what they talk about…
Perfect bliss?

I gave it a shot,
there was a fine line.

I never felt that before,
so that had to be a bad sign.

Being around you,
makes my heart skip a beat.

But, I think that’s stress
or my body claiming defeat.

My patience is running out,
it’s literally almost done.

The fates have spoken,
and I think “They” won.

I can’t sleep at all,
because I feel so bad.

I dwell on memories
and the times we once had.

But I will not suffer another day,
with you by my side.

You do not defend my honor
or protect my pride.

Letting you go,
is the best thing I can do.

Forget what the movies say,
it’s not me… it’s YOU.

In a Drunken Stupor.

03 Thursday Mar 2016

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drunk, feel, feeling, life, lost, mind, why

Drunk with despair
Trying to forget
But THIS was the moment
Where everything fell apart
My life was in shambles
I can’t think straight
Why?
Tell me I’m wrong.
No! I’m not.
THIS was the time
Who knew you would be taken from me
4 years later.
I miss you, with ALL of me,
ALL my being.
Who am I, without you?
I can’t believe I’m here.
4 years later.
4 years it took me to heal
I’m not healed
I can remember like it was yesterday,
Where they threw me out of the ER
I couldn’t see you like that.
Now you’re GONE.
I can’t imagine.
I struggle everyday.
My emotions overtake me.
Why?
Speak to me.
You can’t.
Only in my Dreams, I hear you, I speak to you.
I’m back in the place where I found out, You had a problem.
The memories are killing me.
Dying to relive the moment I found out.
So I can have another 4 years.
But NO, it’s over.
It’s done.
I have to live with this.

Addiction

11 Thursday Feb 2016

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feelings, life, mind, random, thoughts

The mind is deep and dark, but so is the club
Lights, smoke, alcohol- feelings become a blur

Stress takes a back seat, when THAT song comes on
Music so loud, your head throbs, but what’s new?

Reality sets in… “thinking” is not an option
Questions with no answers, running through the mind

Is this what it takes to forget?
Is this my only option?

Mood changes. Go with the flow…

This is much needed, a brief moment…a break


Sweat, blurred vision, an instantaneous high

Addiction IS the drugs, the alcohol, the sex, the food, the work, the smoking, the shopping, the internet, the gambling, the video games…

Fulfilling YOUR addiction, the crave subsides
Addicted to that feeling… of not feeling at all.

-Fin

A Tiny (New Year) Poem

01 Friday Jan 2016

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fears, life, mind, newyear, poem, poetry, positive, random, remember, thoughts

“Throw your penny down the “New Year” well,

if it comes true only time will tell.

The Devil will want you to use your penny to pay his toll,

but please think first before you sell your soul.

As the crowd waits for the BIG bright ball to drop,

in this moment, the whole world will stop.

As we begin another year,

live and let go of all your fears.

Look UP and never look BACK,

life will soon get back on track.

Just remember to stay nothing less than positive,

and always be aware of the life you want to live.”

Everyone Needs Encouragement.

30 Monday Nov 2015

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beginning, dontgiveup, encouragement, imagination, life, mind, peace, poem, think, thoughts, words

Don’t ever give up.
Hold on
Try to get along
I’m not saying nothing’s wrong
Just be strong
And soon your imagination
Will turn into determination
Then you will find some reconciliation
And find peace within yourself
But until then
You will have to bend
Just adjust
Buckle up
It’s going to be a bumpy ride
So set aside
Your emotions
Be open
To ideas
And let go of all your fears
Because time heals
Everything will soon work out
Don’t pout
Try and figure it out
Get your life together
Forget the stormy weather
Close your eyes and pray to see the sun
Open them
And hopefully
Your new beginning has just begun.

Acceptance and Peace

20 Tuesday Oct 2015

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acceptance, change, choice, different, equality, grow, happiness, learn, lgbt, peace, religion, think

Isn’t it crazy that you never know where life can take you? As a person, you can hold someone else’s life in your hands and not even know them? How is that even possible? I don’t know and no one has all the answers to life, but what I do know is we should live every day like it is our last because it is not known when our LAST day is.

You could be doing what you think is the “right” thing all your life, but the person doing all the “wrong” things ends up affecting the person who does the “right” and then nobody wins. So whose to say what is right and wrong anyway?

Religion, race, sexuality, skin color, gender or etc., should play no part in one another’s individual happiness. Just be yourself and live YOUR truth because being happy with who you are, is all that matters. There are too many injustices and hate in the world, by itself, to be teaching our younger generation to carry that on further. The only thing that should be understood is what you believe is right for YOURSELF and no one else. Mind your own business. To be ANTI- something is a waste of time and energy, especially if it doesn’t affect your individual life. Stop judging and teaching HATE, we can be much better than that. Better people, better friends, better partners, better teachers, better parents, just better in general and hopefully the next generation and so on, can learn acceptance and peace.

A Never-Ending Nightmare.

08 Tuesday Sep 2015

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anxiety, dark, mind, nightmare, poem, poetry, random, Sleep, think, thinking, thoughts

Lay your head down to sleep.
Fears fill your mind.
Overthinking at its finest.
What does the future hold?
Can I?
Will I?
What am I?
Sweat beads form around your forehead.
Breathing heavily.
Dreaming of everything that can go wrong.
Chest is tight,
Tossing and turning as time refuses to stop.
This has to be nightmare.
The unknown, the unknown future.
Eyes moving rapidly behind its lids.

Life is moving.
Years are passing.
The same dream haunts my sleep,
so I don’t get any.
Insomnia moves me to walk around.
This is still just wasted time.

What was it all for?
What am I trying to tell myself?
What does it all mean?

Lay back down.
Eyes bloodshot and burning.
Sun rises, as light peaks through the window.
It’s morning and I’m still ridden with fear.
I must be sleeping.
But, like a slap in the face, reality sets in…

No.
My Life IS the Nightmare!

And I just have to wake up.

Moods

19 Wednesday Aug 2015

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calmdown, dreams, life, mind, Mood, Moody, random, Sleep, stories, stress, thoughts

Changes as much as the clock ticks.
Up, down… Bed.
Cry.
Indulge.
Cry some more.
Alcohol numbs feelings.
Laughter to cover up the crying.
Happy for awhile…
Tired from the changes.
Lay down and think.
Eyes close, mind racing.
Up, down…Sleep
Dream.

Reverse the Cycle

20 Monday Jul 2015

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acceptance, calmdown, change, cycle, dreams, drunk, life, mind, people, random, reverse the cycle

Dripping with this Disease of Delusion.

Drunk and Disorderly.

Dysfunctional in every Decision.

Devious thoughts forming Deceitful behavior.

Deriving from your Dramatic personality, Draining your mind.

Deprived of any Doubt.

Damaged from years of Deception.

Dreary eyes cannot see the Distance.

Delirious now, you want a Do-over, too late!

Disaster is Diminishing Downward.

Deeper and Deeper.

Dying while falling Downhill.

 

Now it’s Dawn, you’re Dizzy, but you Decide to make things Different.

This Drifter, is now Driven.

Drawn to Dreams, never to Dread another Day.

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