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Not a Burden…

28 Sunday Aug 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in feelings, Life, Stories, Uncategorized

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acceptance, anxiety, better, life, memories, mind, poetry, random, stories, thoughts

My tears make a path that no one dries
A path filled with let downs that never end.

A silent scene of flashbacks and memories that started the cries
All alone.. not even trying to burden a friend.

Butterflies fill my stomach and also my head
Overthinking at its worst, worst than its ever been.

Sleeping used to be comforting, but now it’s something I dread
Trying to hide the pain with just a small grin.

Emotional all the time, but showing no emotion at all
Ducking behind the walls I built with my own hands.

Thinking to myself, “these walls are so tall”
And my personality is just so “bland.”

::Sighs:: with the thought that no one cares
Feelings become irrelevant.

Thinking that life is just so unfair
And only believing the words that “they” never meant.

I’m better now or so I thought
Fighting it, for years and years.

The horror that my mind has brought
Gets me emotional and filled with fears.

Never going back, doubt clouds my face–
::thinking:: THIS will be my “last straw.”

Everything will eventually fall into place
Starting with Me– everything I am and all my flaws.

A Red Word

13 Saturday Aug 2016

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anxiety, depression, life, love, mind, poetry, random, think, thoughts, worthless

THIS feeling.
An overwhelming out-pour of need.
Or maybe– want.
Loneliness is a disease.
It consumes.
But you can never truly be alone… if you love yourself.
Is it really that hard?
Yes!
How can you WANT someone to love you, if you, yourself, don’t love you.
Stricken with the idea that someone can love you–
The idea that you can possibly love yourself?
No!?
Those voices in your head.


“You’re not worth it.”


But if YOU believe this, so will everyone else.
Worthless.
A word with MORE meaning than it ever intended.

Laugh Again…

17 Sunday Jul 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in Loss, Uncategorized

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laugh, life, Loss, love, mind, poem, poetry, random, sad, thoughts

I took for granted that I laughed everyday

Saying “I miss you” is just so cliché


Without you nothing is the same

I don’t even want to think about it or say your name


The house is empty without your presence

It only smells of burning flames and incense


It’s not even worth coming home anymore

I close my eyes and drop to the floor


I can’t even cry because I’ve become so numb

Thinking about THAT day, with a much different outcome


Because of this, she’s gone for good

The funny thing is, you knew she would


I have to figure out a way to go on

I can hear your voice saying, “Don’t worry you’re strong”


The days go by– one at a time

Praying for the day, I will be just fine


Maybe that day missing you, will come to an end

And you will somehow help me, laugh again.

Whispers in the Night

24 Tuesday May 2016

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life, mind, night, poetry, random, Sleep, thoughts

Fighting back tears,
to once again hear your voice.

It all happened so fast,
I never had a choice.

Between restless nights
and tired days.

My mind wanders in and out,
Thoughts fade.

I try not think about you,
because it hurts too much.

Coming home everyday,
no hugs, no touch.

This doesn’t really happen,
this can be real life.

The headaches are severe,
the pain cuts like a knife.

I crave sleep,
to forget once again.

Forget about the darkness,
and how it’s really been.

I lay on my pillow,
my chest tight.

Hours later,

Only to be awaken by,

Whispers in the Night.

Addiction

11 Thursday Feb 2016

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The mind is deep and dark, but so is the club
Lights, smoke, alcohol- feelings become a blur

Stress takes a back seat, when THAT song comes on
Music so loud, your head throbs, but what’s new?

Reality sets in… “thinking” is not an option
Questions with no answers, running through the mind

Is this what it takes to forget?
Is this my only option?

Mood changes. Go with the flow…

This is much needed, a brief moment…a break


Sweat, blurred vision, an instantaneous high

Addiction IS the drugs, the alcohol, the sex, the food, the work, the smoking, the shopping, the internet, the gambling, the video games…

Fulfilling YOUR addiction, the crave subsides
Addicted to that feeling… of not feeling at all.

-Fin

A Tiny (New Year) Poem

01 Friday Jan 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry, Uncategorized

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fears, life, mind, newyear, poem, poetry, positive, random, remember, thoughts

“Throw your penny down the “New Year” well,

if it comes true only time will tell.

The Devil will want you to use your penny to pay his toll,

but please think first before you sell your soul.

As the crowd waits for the BIG bright ball to drop,

in this moment, the whole world will stop.

As we begin another year,

live and let go of all your fears.

Look UP and never look BACK,

life will soon get back on track.

Just remember to stay nothing less than positive,

and always be aware of the life you want to live.”

Everyone Needs Encouragement.

30 Monday Nov 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry, Uncategorized

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beginning, dontgiveup, encouragement, imagination, life, mind, peace, poem, think, thoughts, words

Don’t ever give up.
Hold on
Try to get along
I’m not saying nothing’s wrong
Just be strong
And soon your imagination
Will turn into determination
Then you will find some reconciliation
And find peace within yourself
But until then
You will have to bend
Just adjust
Buckle up
It’s going to be a bumpy ride
So set aside
Your emotions
Be open
To ideas
And let go of all your fears
Because time heals
Everything will soon work out
Don’t pout
Try and figure it out
Get your life together
Forget the stormy weather
Close your eyes and pray to see the sun
Open them
And hopefully
Your new beginning has just begun.

Friends Will Always Need You…

15 Monday Jun 2015

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depression, friends, herself, life, mind, need, pain, random, stories, stress, toolate

Only time could tell…
How long more, before she fell?

What’s next?
It has already been five minutes after that shocking text.

What would happen to her dearest friend?
This is not how a life is supposed to end.

She constantly tries calling her phone,
But all she gets is the dial tone.

Should she wait until everything is settled?
No, now her foot is pushing harder on the gas pedal.

Faster and faster she goes…
What she will find next, not even she knows.

Flashbacks of happier times.
What would make her friend lose her mind?

Was all her advice just in vain?
Or did it help ease the pain?

Her friend is crying now…
No one is coming, she thinks to herself.
No one cares they don’t want to help.

Please God just end it already, I don’t want to suffer.
It’s was too late, she never heard the muffler.

She runs fast up the stairs…
Her friend closes her eyes and disappears.

Nothing or no one could fight back her tears.
It had come true, her worst fear.

No one could talk her out of the guilt that she felt,
If she had got there faster, she could have helped.

The next day was spent all in black.
She’s gone, the person, who once had her back.

The hole in the ground was deep, it had no end.
And it is now the resting place of her dearest friend.

“You will never know what you have, until it’s gone.”

First Post….

25 Monday May 2015

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life, mind, random, stress, thoughts

Stressed,

Depressed,

and my Mind Can’t seem to Rest,

Every thing Always seems like a Mess,

but I must Confess, that I am truly Blessed,

Because I am Finally the Person that I Want to Be,

Life is purely a Test,

That We All will have to Face,

Because Dreams just don’t Happen,

It’s All about the Chase,

All of us Hoping and Praying we come in First Place,

and get a Taste of Satisfaction,

and Our Reaction will Hopefully be Bliss,

In the Future, we can Laugh and Reminisce,

about A Past that we Do Not Miss…..

~Alyssa Sukhraj

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