20 Sunday Jan 2019
Trials, Tribulations, Thoughts, Treasures, Tragedy, and Triumphs…
Take These Things and Think.
Are These just Tricks Taught by Takers Trying to Test?
Tame your Temper, before They Take your Throne.
Then…
THINK AGAIN and Tell the Tale that no one has Told.
Their Tackiness is Tactful and could be mistaken for Taste
So,
Try to Turn the Tables set by Time, so your life isn’t a Taboo.
Your Truth is yours for the Taking.
22 Friday Sep 2017
Standards are high
Needing someone willing to try.
Too grown to be let down,
but also too grown to keep someone around.
Take over my mind,
Not my body or my life.
When I see the glass half empty,
Can you see it half full?
Love me,
But give me time.
Time to understand what love really is
Time to see what my hearts wants, so it can give.
I’m tired
Tired of myself.
I finally chose me, so give me some space
I’ll eventually learn to love, BUT at my own pace.
03 Sunday Sep 2017
Posted in Life, poetry, society, Uncategorized
summer days
summer nights
summer walks
Never Happened…
hot days
beach days
vacation days
Never Happened…
It’s Cold
It’s Raining
It’s Gloomy
Things are changing… and not for the better
What is going on?
Summers are not HOT anymore, but Global warming is a “Hoax?”
Women are STILL fighting for Rights and Equality?
People are STILL fighting Racism?
Fighting for Acceptance?
Fighting at ALL?
Are we living in a dream?
Because this is Unbelievable…
It’s not funny… Wake Up!
We NEED to do Better.
If not now, for our Future,
And our Future’s, Future.
Hopefully, it’s “hot” next summer
That is all…
15 Wednesday Feb 2017
Posted in Life, poetry, Uncategorized
I got flowers the other day
But they weren’t for me
A very cliché gesture,
In actuality
Maybe that’s why I gave them away
A dozen long-stem roses to put on display?
Roses, roses, full of thorns
The same long-stem roses given when people mourn.
Sorry, happy birthday and I miss you.
Why do flowers make these true?
Say what you mean and mean what you say,
Don’t use flowers to make it okay.
Flowers are a symbol that are supposed to mean love.
When given flowers is that what people are thinking of?
Just like its thorns that made you bleed
Love is just a figment of what we think we need.
30 Sunday Oct 2016
Posted in Life, poetry, Uncategorized
Tags
feelings, life, mind, people, poem, random, relationships, thoughts, truth, understanding
When you finally miss me i’ll be gone.
When you finally decide I’m worth it, I won’t be waiting.
My watch broke, because I stared at it too long.
Waiting…
I’m enough for me,
but there’s also plenty of fish in the sea.
Someone who is waiting and worthy of my wasted time.
“Wasted time is worse than wasted love”
Do me one last favor and don’t shed one tear-
You had your chance.
You no longer have me here-
You have created your own– unfortunate circumstance
24 Saturday Sep 2016
Posted in feelings, Life, Stories, Uncategorized
Thoughts invade my sleep, leaving me without any.
Tired.
I’m everyone’s strength, but who is mine?
Frustrated.
This “strength” has become my inner weakness.
Defeated.
Which mask should I put on today?
Pretending.
Each day feels different.
Changing.
Feelings bottled up, with nowhere to go.
Annoyed.
“They” wouldn’t understand.
Alone.
I will not let whatever-THIS- is get the best of me.
Determined.
It will never control who I am.
Driven.
I will be just fine.
**Dedicated to Someone Special
28 Sunday Aug 2016
Posted in feelings, Life, Stories, Uncategorized
My tears make a path that no one dries
A path filled with let downs that never end.
A silent scene of flashbacks and memories that started the cries
All alone.. not even trying to burden a friend.
Butterflies fill my stomach and also my head
Overthinking at its worst, worst than its ever been.
Sleeping used to be comforting, but now it’s something I dread
Trying to hide the pain with just a small grin.
Emotional all the time, but showing no emotion at all
Ducking behind the walls I built with my own hands.
Thinking to myself, “these walls are so tall”
And my personality is just so “bland.”
::Sighs:: with the thought that no one cares
Feelings become irrelevant.
Thinking that life is just so unfair
And only believing the words that “they” never meant.
I’m better now or so I thought
Fighting it, for years and years.
The horror that my mind has brought
Gets me emotional and filled with fears.
Never going back, doubt clouds my face–
::thinking:: THIS will be my “last straw.”
Everything will eventually fall into place
Starting with Me– everything I am and all my flaws.
13 Saturday Aug 2016
Posted in feelings, Uncategorized
THIS feeling.
An overwhelming out-pour of need.
Or maybe– want.
Loneliness is a disease.
It consumes.
But you can never truly be alone… if you love yourself.
Is it really that hard?
Yes!
How can you WANT someone to love you, if you, yourself, don’t love you.
Stricken with the idea that someone can love you–
The idea that you can possibly love yourself?
No!?
Those voices in your head.
“You’re not worth it.”
But if YOU believe this, so will everyone else.
Worthless.
A word with MORE meaning than it ever intended.
17 Sunday Jul 2016
Posted in Loss, Uncategorized
I took for granted that I laughed everyday
Saying “I miss you” is just so cliché
Without you nothing is the same
I don’t even want to think about it or say your name
The house is empty without your presence
It only smells of burning flames and incense
It’s not even worth coming home anymore
I close my eyes and drop to the floor
I can’t even cry because I’ve become so numb
Thinking about THAT day, with a much different outcome
Because of this, she’s gone for good
The funny thing is, you knew she would
I have to figure out a way to go on
I can hear your voice saying, “Don’t worry you’re strong”
The days go by– one at a time
Praying for the day, I will be just fine
Maybe that day missing you, will come to an end
And you will somehow help me, laugh again.
24 Tuesday May 2016
Posted in Life, Uncategorized
Fighting back tears,
to once again hear your voice.
It all happened so fast,
I never had a choice.
Between restless nights
and tired days.
My mind wanders in and out,
Thoughts fade.
I try not think about you,
because it hurts too much.
Coming home everyday,
no hugs, no touch.
This doesn’t really happen,
this can be real life.
The headaches are severe,
the pain cuts like a knife.
I crave sleep,
to forget once again.
Forget about the darkness,
and how it’s really been.
I lay on my pillow,
my chest tight.
Hours later,
Only to be awaken by,
Whispers in the Night.
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