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A Defining Moment

19 Tuesday Apr 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry

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life, love, mind, poem, poetry, random, relationships, stories, thoughts

You’re just a fantasy
of what I think I need.

Your presence makes me sick
but, I constantly need to feed.

Addicted to your behavior
but, I’m upset all time.

I keep coming back for more,
making sure that you’re all mine.

I swear this is normal,
I keep telling myself this.

This can’t be what they talk about…
Perfect bliss?

I gave it a shot,
there was a fine line.

I never felt that before,
so that had to be a bad sign.

Being around you,
makes my heart skip a beat.

But, I think that’s stress
or my body claiming defeat.

My patience is running out,
it’s literally almost done.

The fates have spoken,
and I think “They” won.

I can’t sleep at all,
because I feel so bad.

I dwell on memories
and the times we once had.

But I will not suffer another day,
with you by my side.

You do not defend my honor
or protect my pride.

Letting you go,
is the best thing I can do.

Forget what the movies say,
it’s not me… it’s YOU.

Addiction

11 Thursday Feb 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry, Uncategorized

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feelings, life, mind, random, thoughts

The mind is deep and dark, but so is the club
Lights, smoke, alcohol- feelings become a blur

Stress takes a back seat, when THAT song comes on
Music so loud, your head throbs, but what’s new?

Reality sets in… “thinking” is not an option
Questions with no answers, running through the mind

Is this what it takes to forget?
Is this my only option?

Mood changes. Go with the flow…

This is much needed, a brief moment…a break


Sweat, blurred vision, an instantaneous high

Addiction IS the drugs, the alcohol, the sex, the food, the work, the smoking, the shopping, the internet, the gambling, the video games…

Fulfilling YOUR addiction, the crave subsides
Addicted to that feeling… of not feeling at all.

-Fin

A Tiny (New Year) Poem

01 Friday Jan 2016

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry, Uncategorized

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fears, life, mind, newyear, poem, poetry, positive, random, remember, thoughts

“Throw your penny down the “New Year” well,

if it comes true only time will tell.

The Devil will want you to use your penny to pay his toll,

but please think first before you sell your soul.

As the crowd waits for the BIG bright ball to drop,

in this moment, the whole world will stop.

As we begin another year,

live and let go of all your fears.

Look UP and never look BACK,

life will soon get back on track.

Just remember to stay nothing less than positive,

and always be aware of the life you want to live.”

A Never-Ending Nightmare.

08 Tuesday Sep 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, Stories

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anxiety, dark, mind, nightmare, poem, poetry, random, Sleep, think, thinking, thoughts

Lay your head down to sleep.
Fears fill your mind.
Overthinking at its finest.
What does the future hold?
Can I?
Will I?
What am I?
Sweat beads form around your forehead.
Breathing heavily.
Dreaming of everything that can go wrong.
Chest is tight,
Tossing and turning as time refuses to stop.
This has to be nightmare.
The unknown, the unknown future.
Eyes moving rapidly behind its lids.

Life is moving.
Years are passing.
The same dream haunts my sleep,
so I don’t get any.
Insomnia moves me to walk around.
This is still just wasted time.

What was it all for?
What am I trying to tell myself?
What does it all mean?

Lay back down.
Eyes bloodshot and burning.
Sun rises, as light peaks through the window.
It’s morning and I’m still ridden with fear.
I must be sleeping.
But, like a slap in the face, reality sets in…

No.
My Life IS the Nightmare!

And I just have to wake up.

Moods

19 Wednesday Aug 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life

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calmdown, dreams, life, mind, Mood, Moody, random, Sleep, stories, stress, thoughts

Changes as much as the clock ticks.
Up, down… Bed.
Cry.
Indulge.
Cry some more.
Alcohol numbs feelings.
Laughter to cover up the crying.
Happy for awhile…
Tired from the changes.
Lay down and think.
Eyes close, mind racing.
Up, down…Sleep
Dream.

Still Here…

31 Friday Jul 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Stories

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blank, days, giveup, help, life, lost, mind, people, random, stillhere, stories, story

Some days you just want to give up.
That statement means something different to everyone.

Here’s One Story.

Never offended
Often pretended
Mouth was always closed
But no one knows
Because it never showed
Always felt
That no one would help
Wanted to be defended
Hand always extended
Where was the hand to grab?
Constantly back-stabbed
Fake smile
For awhile
Just a child
Lost
Double crossed
Questioned life
Thought twice
No fear
Mind clear
Still here.

Reverse the Cycle

20 Monday Jul 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life

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acceptance, calmdown, change, cycle, dreams, drunk, life, mind, people, random, reverse the cycle

Dripping with this Disease of Delusion.

Drunk and Disorderly.

Dysfunctional in every Decision.

Devious thoughts forming Deceitful behavior.

Deriving from your Dramatic personality, Draining your mind.

Deprived of any Doubt.

Damaged from years of Deception.

Dreary eyes cannot see the Distance.

Delirious now, you want a Do-over, too late!

Disaster is Diminishing Downward.

Deeper and Deeper.

Dying while falling Downhill.

 

Now it’s Dawn, you’re Dizzy, but you Decide to make things Different.

This Drifter, is now Driven.

Drawn to Dreams, never to Dread another Day.

Sing to Me

30 Tuesday Jun 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Life, poetry

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backintheday, better, care, choice, die, eyes, life, love, mind, poem, random, Sing, weep, young

Sing to me,
like you did when I was young.

Sing to me,
like my life has just begun.

Sing to me,
with love in your eyes.

Sing to me,
without all the lies.

Sing to me,
so I can fall asleep.

Sing to me,
so I don’t hear you weep.

Sing to me,
like the song will never die.

Sing to me,
so I will not wake up and cry.

Sing to me,
and let’s pretend I have a choice.

Sing to me,
so I can hear your voice.

Sing to me,
like you really care.

Sing to me,
so I can still hear you there.

Sing to me,
like I know you can.

Sing to me,
because I will always be your number one fan.

Let Life Guide You (ABC Poem)

27 Saturday Jun 2015

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ABCpoem, acceptance, boat, different, guide, life, love, metaphor, mind, random, sailing, uncertainty, you

A Boat Can Disappear,

Entering Forever, Gone, How?

In Jeopardy, Knowing, Loving Many.

Nobody’s Opposite Pain.

Quarries Rise,

Sailing Towards Uncertainty.

Violent Winds eXpand.

Years Zone.



Friends Will Always Need You…

15 Monday Jun 2015

Posted by lyssiepooh in Uncategorized

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depression, friends, herself, life, mind, need, pain, random, stories, stress, toolate

Only time could tell…
How long more, before she fell?

What’s next?
It has already been five minutes after that shocking text.

What would happen to her dearest friend?
This is not how a life is supposed to end.

She constantly tries calling her phone,
But all she gets is the dial tone.

Should she wait until everything is settled?
No, now her foot is pushing harder on the gas pedal.

Faster and faster she goes…
What she will find next, not even she knows.

Flashbacks of happier times.
What would make her friend lose her mind?

Was all her advice just in vain?
Or did it help ease the pain?

Her friend is crying now…
No one is coming, she thinks to herself.
No one cares they don’t want to help.

Please God just end it already, I don’t want to suffer.
It’s was too late, she never heard the muffler.

She runs fast up the stairs…
Her friend closes her eyes and disappears.

Nothing or no one could fight back her tears.
It had come true, her worst fear.

No one could talk her out of the guilt that she felt,
If she had got there faster, she could have helped.

The next day was spent all in black.
She’s gone, the person, who once had her back.

The hole in the ground was deep, it had no end.
And it is now the resting place of her dearest friend.

“You will never know what you have, until it’s gone.”

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