24 Saturday Sep 2016
Posted in feelings, Life, Stories, Uncategorized
Thoughts invade my sleep, leaving me without any.
Tired.
I’m everyone’s strength, but who is mine?
Frustrated.
This “strength” has become my inner weakness.
Defeated.
Which mask should I put on today?
Pretending.
Each day feels different.
Changing.
Feelings bottled up, with nowhere to go.
Annoyed.
“They” wouldn’t understand.
Alone.
I will not let whatever-THIS- is get the best of me.
Determined.
It will never control who I am.
Driven.
I will be just fine.
**Dedicated to Someone Special
24 Tuesday May 2016
Posted in Life, Uncategorized
Fighting back tears,
to once again hear your voice.
It all happened so fast,
I never had a choice.
Between restless nights
and tired days.
My mind wanders in and out,
Thoughts fade.
I try not think about you,
because it hurts too much.
Coming home everyday,
no hugs, no touch.
This doesn’t really happen,
this can be real life.
The headaches are severe,
the pain cuts like a knife.
I crave sleep,
to forget once again.
Forget about the darkness,
and how it’s really been.
I lay on my pillow,
my chest tight.
Hours later,
Only to be awaken by,
Whispers in the Night.
08 Tuesday Sep 2015
Lay your head down to sleep.
Fears fill your mind.
Overthinking at its finest.
What does the future hold?
Can I?
Will I?
What am I?
Sweat beads form around your forehead.
Breathing heavily.
Dreaming of everything that can go wrong.
Chest is tight,
Tossing and turning as time refuses to stop.
This has to be nightmare.
The unknown, the unknown future.
Eyes moving rapidly behind its lids.
Life is moving.
Years are passing.
The same dream haunts my sleep,
so I don’t get any.
Insomnia moves me to walk around.
This is still just wasted time.
What was it all for?
What am I trying to tell myself?
What does it all mean?
Lay back down.
Eyes bloodshot and burning.
Sun rises, as light peaks through the window.
It’s morning and I’m still ridden with fear.
I must be sleeping.
But, like a slap in the face, reality sets in…
No.
My Life IS the Nightmare!
19 Wednesday Aug 2015
Posted in Life
Changes as much as the clock ticks.
Up, down… Bed.
Cry.
Indulge.
Cry some more.
Alcohol numbs feelings.
Laughter to cover up the crying.
Happy for awhile…
Tired from the changes.
Lay down and think.
Eyes close, mind racing.
Up, down…Sleep
Dream.
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